I was never really into Valentine’s Day. I saw it just as a bit of fun really and liked to do silly gifts and cards. Michael called it one of those “Hallmark days”, one made increasingly enormous for and by the masses as a consumer event.
Despite his good-natured cynicism, he was never bitter about it, he always made me an awesome card 🙂 always something FUN or funny.
This year more than ever, Valentine’s Day means nothing to me. I notice that I’ve been feeling almost bitter about it.
Typically the universe sent me a lesson to combat my own cynicism this morning… I was doing yoga early in the dark, stars all around, birds still asleep. Before the sky started to lighten, I saw not just one satellite hurtling through the sky, not two, but three satellites!
Before I met Michael (and being brought up in the UK) I never even knew it was possible to see them, the Australian night sky is so different to the UK. He showed me how to spot them and we loved looking for them when we were out in the bush camping, or just out in the evenings away from the city.
Maybe that’s my lesson this morning, to not lose myself in the grief and become bitter about days like these.
To keep my sense of humour and remember that no matter how everyone else chooses to mark days like this one, I can still choose to see things within it that make me smile. And that help me to remember him and smile. Even through the tears.
February 13, 2016 at 8:17 pm
Never become bitter Kate. It would mean that you have closed down to life and living and I don’t think you really want that. Surrender to th feelings and they do pass, but keep your heart open and steadfast to the love that is always there. Perhaps there are more satellites to come and show you the way…
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February 13, 2016 at 10:03 pm
A post rich and full of your heart’s truth. Thank you for sharing your heart.
Valentine’s Day is tomorrow yet here in the States. I’m calling it Single Sunday, choosing not to buy into the hype, commercialism and romance of a day on a calendar. And that’s an ongoing practice. My heart has known love and that’s a daily celebration. And loving myself is my current journey.
I wish you well as you continue to ride the waves… My heart is with you, lovely Kate Xx
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February 13, 2016 at 10:37 pm
Another thought… I don’t like to shy away from what is true for me. Being bitter at moments is highlighting the truth so I can feel and be with what is and move through to the next truth. It’s lingering for long periods that can be troublesome.
We’re each on a different path with varied learnings. Some have a romantic relationship to celebrate, others do not and everything in between. It’s joyful to share and honor those differences.
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February 14, 2016 at 12:02 am
Dear Kate, please don’t feel bitter over Valentine’s day. But if you did, you’re dealing with it fabulously…I had a beautiful image in my head of you doing yoga under a starry sky. The night skies are beautiful here in Australia. Only this week I was stopped in my tracks by the stars in the sky when I was opening the bedroom door before going to bed. I ended up going outside, mesmerised.
It’s those kind of small gifts, just like your satellites I guess, that helps me appreciate everything that matters. Valentine’s day cannot have that same effect on me. Next time I’m looking at the stars again, in awe, I’ll think of you. xoxo
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February 14, 2016 at 4:35 am
Glad to hear you are another lover of the Australian starry skies Eveliene! X
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